What If….

What if I just took a breath and let it all out when I was done with it?

What if I just lived a simple life, nothing grand, not trying to do or be anything?

What would happen if I just let go of needing to be needed by someone or something?

Would I dimly fade away into non-existence or could I actually shine like never before?

To need is human, to love is human, to give is too but at what cost?

What will happen if I continue to give this way, under the disclaimer of being selfless, will I exhaust my source? Will I really let it go that far? Im afraid I already have.

Clear new eyes see the light of this day, Ego takes a trip and shame hits my brow.

I have lost, lesson learned and now I move on.

I give in order to receive, but don’t we all in some way?

To know that love exists between humans beings and that we will be there for each other is so natural, so foreign and hard to accept.

I live in a space of not being understood, not fitting in and not really wanting to.

I long to be an elephant, a lion or a giraffe, knowing my place in the kingdom of God.

I was born a human girl and this is my destiny.

Make peace with all that being human brings, live in my own worth and nothing less, take care of this my gifted temple, trust in the unknown and know that there is nothing perfect about this life except the life itself.